Monovision PRK

Hi. I have no idea where to post this question, so if you might be able to direct me it would be greatly appreciated.

I will try to make this short. I had Lasik surgery over 10 years ago. It was great! I could see the first day and there was no recovery.

Over time, my far vision deteriorated (near vision still perfect) to the point I was squinting to see things people around me could see with ease. I went back to the eye doctor and this time they recommended PRK Monovision due to prior Lasik/not wanting to disturb the flap as well as my age (40s) and the expectation that I may lose near vision as I get older. The plan was to correct the dominant eye and if I really did not like Monovision we could do the second eye.

However, after undergoing the procedure, my far vision became worse while my near vision was unaffected. (I will not even get into the recovery, which was awful!) Upon rechecking me for 5 months, the doctor noticed a slight astigmatism that was missed or not expressing itself at the time of surgery and suggested a revision. I reluctantly had a revision and now I have to talk about the recovery.

The first day was ok. I was not seeing great but could see a little better than prior. The second day I woke up in a lot of pain with a teary eye for most of the day. My vision was slightly better on the snellen chart, but also very blurry and hazy (and I was told this is to be expected). The next day it was worse and I felt like there was a vail of grayness over my eye, but no flashes of light or floaters. The vail of grayness remained with me for about 4-5 days slowly getting lighter in color. My eye also looked and felt gummy and my vision became much worse than prior to procedure.

During the healing process I developed a numbness in my eyeball that is still with me today. My pupil is slightly smaller than my other eye and it feels as though each eye is doing its own thing. I constantly worry I look weird to people. On days that I am really tired, my vision is worse and my eyelid is weak and likes to droop. I have become really depressed over this and do not want to leave my home until I can see right.

Today at 6 weeks, my far vision continues to fluctuate and is better when I have the other eye closed, but worse with both eyes open compared to before having any PRK procedure. My near vision is also poor in the treated eye with double vision (present only in near vision) when untreated eye is closed. However, some days if I really focus and take my time, my near vision in the treated eye is okay, but never with both eyes open. With both eyes open, my near vision is ruined. I can see things up to a foot away, but after that it starts to get blurry until I reach 5 to 7 feet. I used to be able to see a fuzzy on the floor and know it was a fuzzy, but now I have to pick it up and examine it to know it is a fuzzy. Also, my depth perception is not what it used to be, which is really bothersome as I never knew how much I relied on this for my daily life, job and hobbies.

In addition, while my treated eye was healing I noticed I could see much better out of my non-treated eye. It was still bad, but better than what the untreated eye could normally see. Now that the treated eye is mostly healed and distant vision is improved in that eye, my non-treated eye has gone back to the way it was seeing prior to surgery. Distant vision is better when untreated eye is closed and worse with both eyes open.

When I go to the eye doctor, it seems they only care what number I get on the snellen chart. For example, it is possible to see 20/20, but a very blurry 20/20 with a long time to focus vs instantly seeing 20/20 crisp and clear. I do not know what my numbers are, but I do know that overall my vision is definitely worse than before both PRK procedures.

Suggestions? Thoughts? What could cause my pupil to be smaller? and other symptoms? I really feel like I need both of my eyes to work together to see properly.