I appreciate your reply. Definitely NOT what I wanted to hear. No, I have been diagnosed. I have tried everything, believe me. I have researched ayahuasca (see Dr. Gabor Mate) and even though I am so damn far from even coming close to trying it, I am looking for anyone to talk to who has tried it. Apparently there are good results using it. If I said cure, I didn't mean to. This is so bad I cannot function, not even to write out a check. I have read self-help books, been through more therapy than you can imagine, a few EMDR sessions, hypnotherapy, medications, and on and on and on and on. I cannot fathom living like this for the rest of my life. I just won't. It isn't worth it. I have read of people under very safe, controlled conditions using this as a last resort. That is why I asked. If I don't have some sort of breakthrough somewhere, I cannot even imagine what will happen.