Support and strength for leaving narcisstic husband

Hello, I am new to this forum and really have never done this before, but I am so needing support of people who understand.
I've been married to my husband going on 10 years...once I found out he was cheating on me(8 yrs into the marriage) and trying to find out why, I come across narcissistic and this is him to a tee. I never even kne what it was and oh my god!!!! I immediately filed for divorce when I found out about the cheating but yea, he put on the charm and reeled me back in. Now we're going on 10 years and everything is all about him and his world and he just don't care about me, just my little money I make I suppose. I am miserable and just a shell of the person I used to be and want out!! I needs words of support and advice, I cry all the time and don't know why I just can't get up the nerve to leave. I know he will fly into a tantrum and start yelling and putting me down but I'm used to that anyways....I'm sorry if this is all mumble jumble.....any words of wisdom out there plzzzzz Tweet