Re: Please Help. Nonstop Panic Attacks- Way Worse after eating- Derealization, Can't Drive, No Sleep.

You like being high.

Whether it's the magic brain pills or the runner's high after cardio. Uppers.

And then you take downers Clorapanezam (whatever it's called).

It's junkie behaviour.

And then it appears you have turned your health into a kind of game where you buy all sorts of strange concoctions and tests and obsess about statistics and so on.

Meanwhile back in your Real life you can't even perform basic functions and eat simple food.

What seems to me to be happening is you have lost contact with yourself because you enjoy the extreme things you are doing.

Derealization

When you feel this "Derealization" I would guess that your Real self is trying to come through. And yes it is ill by now and doesn't feel good. After all somebody has to pay the bill for all the uppers and downers and so on.

But then you get rid of your Real self again taking more things.

I would suggest you pay the bill sooner rather than later, or more will build up.

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