Re: Feel I am destined to be miserable

Sorry to hear you are having a bad time.

Somehow I think things are better for you than you might imagine. You are 26, not 56. Many people hide from their problems until they are too old.

Also you are quite lucid, intelligent, and you aren't medicated.

This means that something inside you is strong and wise.

All good things.

It is very possible that your chronic condition is simply part of your total state, so treat your health as one thing.

What to do, that's the question ? Here is my recommendation.

1) Forget about finding the magic pill or supplement that is going to magically fix everything

2) Think about rebuilding the entire house, meaning your body, emotions, mind, spirit

3) Every day listen to good influences. For instance Andreas Moritz on youtube talks about natural health, or Ted Nottingham talks about the spirit. This is very important, you have to beam good sh** into your head to push out the bad.

4) I strongly recommend you do something physical, and do it every day. The body is your home, find something you like and do it every day, it's essential. Running, yoga, chi kung, dancing, swimming. It is good to do soemthing like yoga because you can do it every day whatever the weather.

5) Take the approach that hard work pays off. Work on your nutrition, keep it simple clean and green. Work on your emotions, spend time with nice people. Learn about boundaries.

Some people will be good for you, and some people will be bad.

In any case, step by step do good things. Watch them grow. Begin with the body.

Don't stay in bad situations, just look around for new people, social scenes etc... new lovers ... and just drop the past.

One step in the right direction every day, even a small one, and pretty soon you will be halfway up the mountain.

Listen to positive people every day, and do what you can.

There are always things that are too big, too much right now. No problem.

But there are things you can do. DO those things. Whatever you can do, DO it. Don't worry about everything else.

If you don't fit in, no problem. Leave those people. Just find some people you do like and spend time with them. You don't have to like everyone.

Forget about what they think ... and start worrying about what you think. And what you want.

What do you want ?

What do you like ?

Who do you like ?

Just start with that. And do what you like more.