Sorry you are dealing with these things after trying things you may regret now. Just chalk it up to learning and growing up in this crazy world. Try to love yourself and forgive yourself most of all, and everybody else for that matter:) It helps the liver so much!
I would flush if I were you, you will recover quick and learn a ton. Get Andreas Moritz's book first, you will learn so much and it will make you confident about the whole process....Good luck:)