Binge eating after fasting

I completed a 7 day Water Fast and then on day 8 I broke the fast with grape juice and orange juice. Day 9 I only consumed orange juice and grape juice again. Day 10 I folded completely. I had coconut water, vegetable sushi and then a pepperoni pizza. Yesterday I had French toast, turkey bacon, regular bacon, chicken wings onion rings cookies brownies and now I want to go back on the fast again so I haven't eaten again.

I don't know what voice to listen to. The voice that says I'm starving or the voice that says fast. I'm not sure what to do about it. I wanted to start the fast because I was really trying to c hange my diet to primarily vegetarian, get a better control over ptsd, and digestive issues. Now I'm just angry and lost.

How do others deal with this? The benefits where great but not enough to outweigh wanting to binge eat on junk food. Is this candida?parasites?bad habits?

I've never been a binge eater but I have to say, I feel like all that food is petrifying inside of my gut and it's disgusting feeling ( especially the chicken).

Any advice or direction would be appreciated