new birthday new smelly year

So in a few minutes is midnight and it will be my 26th birthday. I will most likely spend it hiding out in my apartment gorging on terrible snacks alone while my twin sister who is unafflicted with this problem gets to gamble and hit up night clubs and strip clubs with her friends.

I am so tired of living like this, it has been 7 years with this problem I have no friends no BF (EVER). I dont know what is stopping me from just overdosing on my sleeping pills.

Ive spent thousands on pills and procedures I could have had a smart car or Nissan Versa by now. I'm just tired and seeking an end to this life of trial and error failure.