I'M GOING TO GIVE it to you straight...Undommiel...read my posts about putting my dog down. I think that after you read them, you will understand the beginning stages of what you are entering. Chasing miracles rarely works. You're jumping through hoops, my friend, just like I did for a few scant weeks, chasing those miracles. Miracles don't happen in real life, only the movies. Pets have an expiration date stamped on them from birth and when you see sign after sign after sign, and life is so tough to make it through a day...I'm telling you from one that's been there done that...just do what needs to be done and suffer the hurt. I did and 4 months later I'm better and clearthinking and glad I did what I needed to do for that little sweet dog. It hurt, worst thing I've ever done in my life, but that is what you need to face. You mention about finances, I get that. Chasing miracles costs lots of money and never results in what you think it will. Advice you should take.