PLEASE HELP non Hodgkin's lymphoma that has spread to the brain with intercrainial swelling, bone mets

I posted something under Cancer Forum but am new here and didn't see this separate forum. I've know I was sick for over 6 years but never went to the dr. I don't had insurance, I don't like drs and I wanted to try alternative on my own. I passed out and was taken to the hospital where I was for 3 days, a ton of tests and now "officially" diagnosed. I do not want to go back to the dr but they are working on brain washing me because I am scared to die, I don't want to die so I'm tempted to go! But no! I want to beat this naturally but I feel lost and its spread to my brain with intracranial swelling so I am now thinking my time is severely limited. Days, weeks? Please someone any advice! I've tried collidial silver, oil of oregano and garden of life's alklizing powder. Tweet