Re: Am I really a bad person

You are not a bad person but through the abuse you have experienced you are carrying entities, demons, bad habits, whatever you wish to call them. 

You have not learned self protective behaviours.. and this is due to your parents not teaching you - and this has lead to years of abuse. You have developed into a pain junkie. You need a re-adjustment, either through prayer, exorcism, acupuncture or all of the above.