Oh my goodness, you poured out your heart here. Thank you so much. I have been struggling with mental illness since 06 after my last baby and I have been put on just about every medication to find out after some time I get terrible side effects so I have to get off and try another one. I have been searching for alternative ways to help myself. Two nights ago I was on a christian chat site and I prayed for healing of bipolar and this guy spoke up and told me that he used to have that and he explained how he took L-Tryptophan for 4-6 weeks with brewer's yeast and then he took 5htp and still does and he is cured now. So yesterday I went and got L-Tryptophan and bewer's yeast and I took L-Try last night and today I felt wonderful all day long and got so much done. I also have ADHD and I have not been getting much school work done but I worked from 7:00am to 8:00 pm with breaks but I was able to focus and get good school work done. Praise God. I looked up to see if anyone else has had success and I found your post. I am hopeful. I really want to get cured or healed, why yesterday I read Jeremiah 29:11, "For I know the plans I have for you, says the Lord. They are plans for good and not disaster, to give you future and hope." I felt like something good was going to happen in my heart. I don't exactly understand the gut and what to do to get to the root but this is a start. Wow, thanks for sharing!! :)