Hi, and sorry to hear you have been going through all this, if you haven't gotten help yet? I would like to urge you to speak to an herbalist or Chinese medical doctor near you. You are so smart to not take the anti-depressants they will only make things worse. What you need is to have your stool checked and have your tongue examined by a Chinese Doctor. If you can't afford to go to one, then please look into Radiant Wonder herbs online. They were recommended by a friend for my PMS symptoms after having had tried everything else. They offer free phone consultations and the prices of the herbs are reasonable. I took Nirvana in a bottle for my anxiety and it worked like a charm. Email me if you need to vent...