Hey #174156, thanks a million for the rapid reply. Actually, I've had a daily meditation practice since 1978, when I was seven years old. To be honest, I recommend it to people all the time myself. In some ways I've been very fortunate, indeed. Sometimes trauma is so extreme and out of the ordinary that damaged children are instructed in meditation, and it becomes a lifelong practice. Anyway, long story short, sometimes sitting/prayer/meditation isn't enough. Alcohol is no answer either.....
Thanks again, take care