Raped and Robbed at knifepoint...

Hi all,
I'm not even sure how to start any of this, or if I'm even in the first place, but here goes-

Just over a month ago I was on vacation with my family when our villa was broken into. I awoke to a man standing at my bedroom door between the curtains. He showed me with his torch that he had a knife, and told me to 'shhhhh'.

He then came in and stole some things from me, then sexually assaulted me and then proceeded to check my room for items to steal. He didn't put his knife down the whole time.

As he continued to look, I was closer to the door than him so jumped off my bed and ran out of the room. As I ran out I fell on the steps and screamed as I scrambled back up again. I ran to my sisters room and her husband ran out to check on the rest of the family. The man had gone by then.

I am so thankful every day that I am alive, and that nobody was hurt. We had children staying with us who I would literally give my life for and just cannot express how relieved I am that this didn't happen to them.

And although I feel immense relief that seems to have taken over, I can't get the image of him standing in my doorway out of my head. It happened in a foreign country and I am home now, so I know I am safe from him, but the last few nights I just cannot sleep without thinking about it. I'm terrified and I don't know what to do.

I just feel so anxious and scared most of the time, which is not like me. I've always been such an independent person and struggling with losing this sense of freedom is difficult. I'm not sure I'll ever get over the fear of going to sleep. Tweet