Desperate for Answers...Alone...Embarrassed, Scarred

Hi! I'm a 38 year old, single mother of two boys who are 20 & 6...(oldest is married)...
For about 3 years now I have been battling an Acne that comes and goes, but when it's here it stays for months.
My health problems gave been many as I had a gastric bypass in '03, (pushing 400 lbs)...Within about 10 months I was almost 115 lbs. weak, and 17% body fat.
I didn't have a nutritionist until I was already extremely I'll... Huge hernias made it hurt to bad to way so I chewed food and spit it out. If I are it I usually ended up throwing up. :(

Anyway, I went through 10months of having to wear a PIkk line in my arm and hooked up to an IV back every night to get protein.
Had to have my stomach stretched a couple times, and blah blah blah blah...
After I started to get we'll it seems like more things begin to happen...too much to explain...Including finally having a hysterecyomy after 8months of menstrual agony. In my heart I know that all these things weakened my immune system and for the past 2 years I have been now been fighting problems I believe strongly have to do totally with demised mites.

What i'm going to tell you may sound crazy, but it is SO true...it's the while reason I started researching online myself to begin with.
We'll, about a yr ago while crashing at my parents house one night ,I was sleeping in my dads comfy recliner and had a dream about myself lying there ...
I Drembt that there were these worm like creatures that kept going In and out of my face and some in my arms and around my neck...
I Drembt that they had Lil
Arm hooks etc... And it was just a really freaked out dream because I could feel it as if it was really happening...worms busting through my cheeks and coming out my nose. When I awoke I was tripping out, and there was something...(I personally believe it was God showing me) in my head saying "Go look up face parasite on the computer..."
I was SO amazed when images of worms looking like what I had seen in my dreams appeared on my computer screen...
I began researching, cut as much Sugar as possible, and started taking Black-Walnut hull, Wormwood , And Echinacea. I also did a body colon cleanse...

It helped a lot for a while, but soon I was not paying attention, thinking the herbs had killed it all.
In June 2012 I had an allergic reaction to glue the used to close me up during hysterectomy. I ended up getting that Metro gel, and I can't even remember why, butI started using a Lil on my face...It started to help, but wasn't long before it was back.

The past 3mthshave been incredibly discouraging. I really want to get a test done and get products I need to deal with stuff, but things are so expensive.
I wish I could post a photo...my face id covered in acne... And big bumps on my cheeks that aren't acne,.but more like books are full of clear fluid and lots of white dry skin and etc. The white stuff deep inside made my mom even ask if it could be merca.

I also had a pap smear done along with any std's or etc...blood work and all,..came back clean EXCEpt for a bacteria that none of the Drs even knewwhat it was. (same prob happened before and afterhysterectomy as well)

People think i'm just picking at my face, and I won't deny that it's hard not to. I need help. I just found out i'm allergic to wheAt,.and wondered if that had any
relevance.


I'm tired, embarrassed, humiliated, and feel all alone... I WAS trying to dte a bit, but have had to turn guys down because i'm embarrassed aboutmy face. I any to hide away in my house and not see anyone. I got new couch because I kept feeling the creepy crawlies on my neck,fax and.hair while lying in the recliner at night.
I found n awesome sight called shakespearean.com, and got info... But that Lotion is $50 a bottle. :(
I'm going to er rid of my mattress and shampoo my carpets...using a blow up mattress if I can find one cheap.
(by the way, there is a comforter and pillow now that Costco had been advertising, and it actually kills the mites....I can try to get more info if interested.)

Not sure how this will all look when added to site, because I have to do all on phone...hope it's understandable. My phone thinks it needs to change my words air of times...

I would surebe grateful to get a bottle of that stuff the guy a few comments up had if possible. I would like to even get to know people on here more personally..it helps to know i'm not.alone in this. It sure feels like it. -can't remember if that's allowed I not though. Don't want to breakkm rules...I really appreciate whomever started this site.
I really hope you can help me... I feel old, and scarred up... Only down to wearing mascara,.lipstickand SOMETIMES eye liner. It really bothers my eyes though. My face is...well, it's looking like a woman on crack who picks her face. Even my chest...and I literally have felt like I've seen white worm looking stuff.come out of around my neck at bottom. My face won't heal...everyone keeps asking if I could have gotten a disease from my ex.
I'm hitting rock bottom hard...want to start out fresh. I'll find a juicer someway,.and get whatever I need. Please someone,.help me to know what things are most important to do and spend money on. Could I have worms in my gut and not know it? The Drs didn't understand where the bacteria came from...they said probably a cyst...but could the cyst be from a parasite???
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