Just can't fight anymore

I am so sick, and nothing I do helps. I don't have insurance, don't trust doctors, and I'm so sick of trying everything under the sun and never getting better.

Master cleanses, parasite cleanses, fasts, vitamins, minerals, herbs, and every other supplement I can find. It all makes me worse, more depressed, more suicidal.

I have worms crawling out of my body every day. I have lupus with all that comes with it. I'm in pain all the time and so sad that life is just a meaningless day to day nothingness. Anti-depressants don't work. Nothing works.

I just want it to be over. I'm tired of living so that other people won't be sad that I killed myself. They'll get over being sad. I won't ever get over being sick.

There is only so much a person can take. I'm at that limit, and I feel like I'm hanging onto a ledge by my fingertips and am going to lose my grip at any moment. Tweet