Re: Depression

Okay, fast forward. My son is recovering from his second bone marrow transplant and feels good. He came home from the hospital in January and has made rapid improvements. The nurse practitioner asked me what we eat, because his protein levels were consistently good, and that is something that they have a hard time with in their patients. I said we eat a whole foods vegan diet.

So we were all exhausted and were just looking forward to getting settled in again in February. And then, Feb. 27, I got my 6th bladder infection in 4 years.

Some background: After my son was admitted to the hospital in the summer of 2009, about six weeks later I woke up one day with what felt like a uti and blood in my urine. A week or two later I had it again, and the doctor referred me to a urologist for a cystoscopy. The urologist took seven biopsy samples, and the report came back chronic cystitis. When we spoke to him, he said he was glad it was "just" chronic cystits, because he thought it was inflammatory cancer. There had been raw, bloody patches all around my bladder. I was stunned. Could my son and I have had cancer at the same time? It was traumatic, thinking of us both possibly having needed to be at the cancer hospital.

Then, about two months later, the same night that my son was released from the hospital, and I thought we could get back to a normal life, I saw what looked like a baby's head coming out of my vagina. I called my midwife in America and she said my bladder was probably falling out. I went to my obgyn in India the next morning, and she confirmed my midwife's suspicions. So I cried for a month. I didn't hold my one year old for that whole month because I read online that you shouldn't hold more than ten pounds, for the rest of your life, if you have a prolapsed bladder.

Well, again, I just couldn't stop crying, and about a month later, four of the kids and I flew back to America so I could see a specialist in Chicago. I saw her and she said it was not a prolapse. I had seen my regular doctor a few days before, and he also thought it was a prolapse. So I was shocked when she said it wasn't. She told me, Change the tape in your head. It is not a prolapse. I see women all day long for prolapse, and you don't have one.

I was just stunned. Two doctors and a midwife had told me it was, and now she said it wasn't.