Day 20!!!!

Well, I finally freaked out and ate some chocolate yesterday. I had a horrible meeting at my son’s school and came home a wreck. I had a handful of hemp seeds, then a few brazil nuts and some pineapple juice. But I was emotionally wrung out and they didn’t numb me out. I had some chocolate stored away for after the fast and gobbled up a few pieces. They tasted horrible. I’m going to get rid of all my candy, blech! I went to sleep and the madness passed.

This morning I drank some Epsom salts and I continue with the fast. I’ve learned some useful information from this little slip. For one, the freedom of not having to be perfect means that I can mess up and continue fasting. One slip doesn’t mean I might as well start eating today.

It’s amazing my fast has been so smooth considering what an emotional eater I’ve been in the past. For the most part while fasting, my emotions are balanced and serene. But yesterday was a full blown attack of public school negativity.

Seriously, can I leave my son with his grandma during the day and home-school him at nights and on weekends? He’s great with computers so maybe some cd-roms, music classes, gymnastics, cub scouts and field trips could replace the EVIL public school. I’m going to think about it and do some research.

They invented standardized testing to see how the students were
performing….later….school became a place where students learned to take the standardized test. All year long they prepare for the stupid tests. Those tests need to be thrown in the dumper. The whole curriculum is rubbish; mind numbing rubbish. I truly believe he’d be better off gardening all day then going to public school.