Re: Realistic Expectations?

a friend of mine says that disease is an illusion and the illusion will no longer be maintainable after dec 21, 2012

i hope she is right

my accupuncturist said that i was done in 2005
my pulse and tongue and everything indicated i was well
he said that all i needed to do was let somebody love me and my immune system would kick in and i would not have to take herbs or worry about being sick any more

a few months later along came a man who wanted to have sex with me
a couple months after we became lovers he was down on his knees tearfully telling me how wonderful it was to be in a relationship with someone who understood him the way i did

he told his parents and all our friends that it felt so right

he said that some other gal was attracted to him and he didn't want her to be confused and think that he wanted to be in a relationship with her, and wondered if i would be willing to have a threesome with them

i told him to invite her over so we could all get to know each other better and we'd see where it went

she didn't want to come over
she wanted a monogamous commitment

he turned on me, said he felt trapped, accused me of trying to make it seem like we were in a relationship, and made a monogamous commitment to her

i got a bad case of cognitive dissonance, and had the first and only seizure of my life, trying to get my head around the ironic fact that a man can feel trapped in an open relationship with me, because he can't have sex with somebody else, unless he ends it with me, and gives her a monogamous commitment, after telling his parents and everyone we know that he is having sex with me and it feels so right

since then i have been fighting harder than ever, and they have been coming back quicker every time i take a break from cleansing

but once in a while i think i am getting close to beating them off permanently none the less, still

maybe you can beat parasites if you have better luck in love than i have had

or you stay out of relationships completely

or you have a mission and purpose in life that you are determined to accomplish before you die

or you can achieve perfect balance of your own personal individual eco-system

or you have enough faith in God and memorize the Course in Miracles

i am sure it is possible

but for most people at this stage of human evolution

routine maintenance seems like it might be necessary

i hope i am wrong about that and we can all get well