Snobetty, i am not a woman. I have the utmost respect for you to endure this, even if you weren't sick. Woman are some really special beings. They are soft, yet they are super strong and can take some serious pain.
They are still human though. I'm so sorry, i can't imagine how you must feel. You know 6 years ago I got a vasectomy because I was sure i did not want to bring more of my seed to this messed up world. I wasn't sick then, now I'm so glad that I did it.
I can't imagine having more kids, and I'm a guy. But I simply don't want more because I got sick. It's tough enough raising two kids.
I pray and i hope that God gives you the strength that you're going to need to make things work out for your family.