Funny, I took it as a good message mostly, because it sounded as if You start feeling some realities.
Out of the sick bubble so to speak.
That's why the song "back to life".
Reality, here and now.... Doesn't have to be all smiles.
See, You also reflected on Your childhood. I did that a lot in the first months. Still, actually.
It is a process. It's good, even if You want to cry.