BlueRose, thank you for taking the time and giving great thought to my post. I agree about the casual conversations - some days the only chat I have are with cashiers or hair dresser. I am a talker, so it is easy for me to start talking to strangers. It is interesting to note that not everyone I begin to chat with is comfortable with that approach. I did that in a museum recently and you would not believe the look I got. We all have our needs and fears. An aquaintance moved to a 55+ active community and encourages me to do the same. My concern so far - and it may change - is the lack of diversity that I've noticed. There are trade offs I am not desperate enough to make yet.
Thanks for the encouragement. I get up each morning and decide if will I live the day in the spirit of "Love" or "Fear". Of course "Love" wins. The problem is, it's difficult to sustain that when days go by without connection, emotional intimacy. It does wear down the positive feeling. But, I work to be hopeful that the possibility for connection is there. The probability may be low - but it is possible. I'm trying.