Chronic loneliness and lack of passion

After many losses, too many to write now, I had a romantic relationship 3 yrs following my divorce. This was someone I felt strongly connected to and worked with 13-14 years ago. We were both married then and never discussed the mutual attraction.
To make a long story short, he said it was just a fantasy and ended the relationship in an email. I was devastated and then depressed. I was angry and confused after the break-up and said things in anger I regretted.
I had a marriage on paper before this relationship and HE opened up doors to long repressed feelings of longing for connection and romance - love. After a few months of grief I decided I needed to fulfill my need for connection and romance. (I was still in grief process.) I was shocked to find the discrimination towards older women - I was 62. Men literally told me I was too old, or screen me out based on age. Men my age want women 10-15 yrs younger. Women tell me I should be happy with my memories (I have no children and given the marriage was empty - there are not a lot of happy memories other than my working days.) I've even been told to be open to a female lover. I accept everyone's preference, but that's not mine. I've tried church groups, volunteered for a variety of interests but never make a connection - male or female. I've been busy and bored. I read, read, read self-help. I join Meet-ups but they are so superficial. I long for a real friend. I long for a romantic partner too. I am still young in attitude, physically vital, just lonely. I love myself, but the inability to share life makes it less interesting and I find myself backing off from things I used to enjoy because I am tired of doing them alone - all the time. Depression is worsening with the rejection and isolation, the lack of passion increasing, energy decreasing. I've been in counseling 2 yrs. I've tried meds - none worked, some made me feel worse. I am trying vitamins and minerals too. I retired early, living in a new state (for financial reasons), have no family near by, wait days for call backs from "acquaintences", if they call back at all. If this is the rest of my life... it's not good enough. Even monks and priests live with connection. Suggestions?