Thanks for your empathy, Onwards. I appreciate that you understand how I am feeling, and why I write the things I do and the way I do: im very scared, im scared to death... Thats the naked truth and someone experienced can see it easily I guess. Its easy to see why have you healed! It seems you are nowadays very balanced and focused. You nailed the panic thing and I am trying hard to work in that aspect, doing the things you mentioned and all that theory that we all know what its so hard to get to the practice (letting go, stop the victim perspective etc). It seems the NB supplements are simply aggravating the hysteria and panic, though. You need to get worse until you get better right? And all that crap :)
Thats awesome! But I tracked the veggies-carb calories and the amount I do with my meats and grains, although its big, doesnt have much calories, its very low caloric indeed. Maybe I need to eat much more vegetables? Because I can do that. I even did urine enemas in the past. And with reducing grains I could be sure my leaky gut its not worsening or being irritated. I already gave up completely on milk and eggs, common allergens to which I also had a high IgG score in tests.
You are very right about me. Im that fool that were in a very low calorie diet for months, because veggies have very low carb and I wasnt eating that much vegetables with my meat etc. I guess I understood wrong what I had read in the Internet and what my alternative docs told me. But its true that inplementing a healthy Diet without having problems with calories isnt easy. Now I am aware that I need at least 1500 calories per day and doing my best to keep it up.