Get help and use caution

Hellin, I am very sorry that you experienced these events.  Rape is a lifelong crime - it doesn't end after the rape does. 

Having said that, I don't intend to sound harsh, but the graphic details that you've posted along with an ALLEGED rapist's full name are treading very, very thin ice. 

The graphic details should have been reported to a Rape Hotline instead of being posted on an open public forum. 

I am not trying to suggest that  you didn't have these horrific experiences, but if this person does, indeed, exist and he did, indeed commit the acts that you inappropriately described on an open, and internationally public forum, and you have chosen to mention him, by name,  you are opening  yourself up to a potential law suit.

Get some help by contacting your LOCAL rape hotline, regardless of how long ago these events took place.  And, brightest healing blessings to you.......