Not Asking for Sympathy !!!WARNING: GRAPHIC WORDING; MAY CAUSE UNINTENTIONAL TRIGGERS!!!

!!!WARNING: GRAPHIC WORDING; MAY CAUSE UNINTENTIONAL TRIGGERS!!!

i'm 37 yrs old and was molested as a child by my biological dad. He also tried to have sex with me but he was too slow that one time.

Then when i was 8, a girl in my school removed my pants and panties in the playground slide and touched my clitoris.

The one time i decided to giving dating a try. i was 21 and in my 2nd year of college. i was dating this guy named Patrick Joseph Unan, who turned out to be a devil-worshiper... he was jealous of me spending time online talking to someone in the States who actively served in the military.

He took me back to his parents home one Sunday morning on Sept 1st, 2006 and it was there after when his parents weren't around he offered me alcohol (i don't handle it well). i had a little bit but it was too strong for me. He offered me to lie down to rest because i had a long week in school. i was studying hard on Accounting, the major.

A short time later, this pr!ck-sh!t a-hole came back to the room and sat on top of my petite body and began removing my upper body of clothing and then touching me the same way my dad had done many years ago.

he asked me if i liked his foreplay, i said no. he laughs at me, and then ties my wrists to the headboard with some restraints. He continues to grope me and squeeze my breasts as i wince and start having flashbacks from my childhood before me.

AND THEN IT HAPPENED! He removed stockings, and jeanskirt and tossed the clothes all onto the floor beside the bed. Taking my stockings and placed them deep in my small mouth that i almost gagged. He takes his hands and removes my panties and begins to touch me the same way my dad molested me.

"You are going to regret this" Patrick hisses at me and he takes his hands and tries to fight with me trying to spread my legs apart. i tried to fight him off but couldn't, for he is 6 feet and 230 lbs. he succeeds and spreads my legs wide apart exposing my private area for him to see. He quickly undresses and spank the monkeys until his penis was ready and hard...

He brutally thrust his penis into me without warning. He continued to thrust harder and faster trying to hit the insides of the walls of my vagina meanwhile i've been tossing my head saying no and tears streaming down from my eyes through the pain and horror i had to endure. Finally... his penis had been satisfied and Patrick doesn't stop there. He ejaculated semen and all into me.

His penis goes limp and he's smiling like he's enjoying every minute of this rape. "Thank you for making me come into you. Let's do it again sometime soon."

i don't remember how much time has passed until he finally unties me from the bed. That one time, i was raped that day missionary style.

For 2.5 years as his girlfriend, i was raped repeatedly countless times. i was so scared to leave him and couldn't feel safe.

He brutally took my virginity and right now i'm shaking and not feeling so well. He was NOT a virgin but i was! My stomach's hurting and this takes a lot of gut to write this here!

FYI, i'm not doing this as a cry for help, but because i want everyone to know what a rapist Patrick Joseph Unan is no matter what he may say.

To this day, i still suffer from insomnia, nightmares, and PTSD.

i am so sorry if anyone has gone through a similar experience before but i am not prepared to answer any replies. Tweet