Sorry to hear about this. I suffered from anxiety and major Depression growing up. I saw a shrink, took meds etc..etc..but I couldn't live with the idea that I would have to take a pill for the rest of my life. So I started to read..yoga and meditation books..I started to practice it..changing my diet etc..It really worked. The most important thing is that I was determined to beat this thing. I didn't give up and I did.
Good luck, don't give up. TAke it One step at a time..start by asking yourself, what it is that you really want. Write it down..sit for a few minutes a day close you eyes, and just breath....