After reading your post was touching as know what if feels like to be rejected was over 20 stone at one point in my life. You are just as important try and remind yourself find some thing positive and embrace yourself maybe a positive list get out every morning. While reading this it should help bring even more positive things in your life. Please don't expect this to happen over night it will take time then will eventually see. Good luck. If you want to pm any time am here.