Chin up! i totally know how you feel. i know i've reached the height of Depression when i totally give up. so i don't give up. explore everything, but be selective as to what you try. not only can this damn disease get expensive, but i've had so many hokey protocols take me backward. even if you make a little progress it will be worth the effort. i'm ingesting grapefruit seed extract (drops in water) and so far i'm holding my own. if it ends up failing, it will be on to the next. i get so tired of this shit too....