Loose bm and epilepsy/severe memory lapses?

I kinda knew I had a problem in July when I was waking up at 2 in the afternoon with a head like an anvil, but it was not until the first day of school in September that everything went downhill for me.

I woke up that day and made an especially potent brew of tea containing cordyceps, reishi, cocao, ginsing, yerba mate, coffee, green tea, and a few other herbs, downed it, and had a very, very, bad IBS attack. My health crashed extremely bad that day. By the end of the week I knew something was terribly wrong.

It is has been ever since then, and especially severely since November when I made the mistake of taken racetam nootropics and citicoline against my better judgement, that I am in an almost zombie like state of derealization. My memory loss is so intense. I never remember anything. I feel like any time I drink even a small amount of caffeine, I am going to have a panic attack, stop breathing, or a seizure is coming on.
My IQ feels like it is 50 points lower. I can not study, I cannot learn, I cannot feel much happiness or emotion, I am definitely suffering. I already had these problems to a much lesser degree, but I relied on my "manic" states. Now I am always down. Even when I am awake, I barely feel awake. I do not want to even get out of bed, not at any point.
The worst part, is that I feel like I forgot a lot of the school I learned in college the last 2 years. I do not remember anything about my life very viscerally or lucidly. My vocabulary and articulation greatly decreased.


I always had reasonably good memory, and especially good in the moment intelligence, when I had the energy. I knew to a degree that I alternated in between manic and depressive states, and that I did have learning and memory impairments but no one ever suspected it, because of how incredibly intelligent I was from an early age.

But after I lost the weight, my physical fatigue did not seem to improve given the weight loss. This is probably because I did it mostly through too much dieting and not even 90% of the exercise that should have taken place. I always had very poor motivation and energy, but at the last minute I would pull all nighters and do really, really, profoundly good work. I have done my best intellectual work under pressure, stress, and time constraints almost always late at night.

It was this summer I came to realize that this was not a coincidence. So long as it was during the day, my fatigue and mental fog were at an extreme. But, during the evening I would have a reasonable chance of learning.

I then began to take, many, many, over a thousand dollars worth of supplements. And I was taking digestive enzymes, something I have come to realize was a mistake.

These herbs were too strong, or too potent as psychotropic agents. I believe they put a great deal of stress on my endocrine and immune system. True, adaptogens and relora are suppose to help, but I am almost certain they made things much worse.

I combined these adaptogens and yerba mate (caffeine) to do a great deal, 1000s of hours of medical research for 4 months over the summer. It is this constant late nights of intense studying that I believe really pushed my health into the danger zone.

I have had a persistent headache since September 1st, that only seems to go away if I barely eat for 5 days and exercise outdoors a great amount in the sunlight. Fat, almonds, meat of any kind and eating after dawn or dusk, seem to especially worsen and prolong the headaches. Not eating fish pills or drinking caffeine also antagonizes my headaches. These headaches are weird headaches, it feels like my brain is either half empty and dull, or that it is inflamed, and irritated. These headaches correlate with my dysbiosis and poor digestion. The looser my bowels stay in a given week, the worse this headache becomes. It began to work its way up around the vagus nerve right around the point between my temple and the top of my ear, like someone had a pair of pliers pinching the nerve in the spot or my jaw was being undone.

Today, to this date, the leaky gut and sensitivity to food is my most aggravating consistent health problem. The pain can be quite incapacitating. The catch is it developed into IBS after I lost the weight(330 lb to 175 lb in 12 months) and began drinking a lot of caffeine. I suppose I have some pretty bad ulcers that just happen to not bleed in my jujenum/upper small intestines. This means that I probably do not absorb food well at all. And it is painful to digest. Of course my pancreas and gallbladder seem weak and do not do their job regarding proper digestion.

My digestion is at its worst point. Food looks almost totally undigested after a bowel movement. Often it would just be disintegrated in the toilet bowl at the bottom. It often appeared clean and odorless if I do not drink caffeine. I do not have diarrhea, and I do not have constipation. It is as if no digestion occurs. But if I eat the wrong thing, such as fruit juice, the gas and bloating is horrific.

I had to totally stop with the caffeine. One or two sips of something with a xanthine in it, and I would empty my entire bowels. This would trigger very severe neurological problems, sort of Posterial Orthostatic Tachycardia Syndrome, epilipsy, dizziness, wooziness, sore throat, intense fatigue, eyes sink in the back of my head, headache, brain feeling starved, nerve pains.

With something like Sugar or juice and caffeine I WOULD actually get diarreah which would be bad. In the past I controlled all this with fish pills, as much as 30 fish pills a day. It also controls the psychological problems.

Because of the feelings of "epilepsy" and panic I have had, and because of my herbs and caffeine. I am a bit afraid this is more than just adrenal fatigue. I am concerned about whether brain damage has occurred.

This is a lot of information, so I will wait and post more regarding what tests or approaches I am considering (besides the obvious hair mineral analysis) and what I may even think is wrong with me. Granted I have no insurance, and I SERIOUSLY adverse to taking anymore supplements, currently unable to juice fruit because of ulcers and leaky gut,...not able to digest meat very well...

Here is some background info:
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Well I have posted around here some before. I have talked in my posts about how bad my health had been for the last 8 years, all of high school essentially, and then the last 4 and a half years since I graduated and moved on to college.

I stated that I had been morbidly obese, and had mrsa Antibiotic resistant staph up until 3 years ago when I started losing the weight and finished approximately 2 years ago.

Over the last 5 or 6 months I read a good deal about adrenal fatigue, and then I began to really read up on mercury toxicity. Of course all along I read up on candida, and many many other environmental illnesses such as fibro, etc,etc.

My main complaint was that I have such incredible fatigue coupled with anxiety and Depression and stomach cramps/ food sensitivities , lots of feelings of "doom". I think those were at least the main points I kept reiterating upon. Someone actually suggested that I may have copper toxicity.

Frankly, at this point I am under the impression I have endocrine disease of some sort, and not purely adrenal fatigue, but in fact more insidious. I also feel like I have some sort of auto-immune disease. I did as a child get about 10 serious cases of upper respiratory infection, finally culminating with a severe case of pneumonia in the third grade. After that, I really never got common colds or flue like symptoms. But it was about in the 7th grade that I began to have a great amount of psychological problems and the staph outbreak.

Based on the theory about here, that is a huge indication of gut toxeamia, lymphatic obstruction, poor circulation, metabolism disorder, and definitely, definitely parasites. But that was also about the time my vision became quite poor. I speculate that the morbid obesity played a part,. and in some way I speculate that whatever caused me to become morbidly obese as a toddler so easily, genetically speaking or otherwise, is why I am so sick presently, even though I am 5'6 male, 175 lbs, medium to large framed...

I really began to have problems severely psychologically (I do not have silver fillings presently, and only had 1 filling that came out over 10 years ago) and severe stomach cramps mostly when I would eat breakfast cereal, corn meal, soy, fried foods, and any dairy cream especially in about the 11th grade. I attributed this to severe leaky gut.



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