Re: More infections than I thought.... please help

Edited to insert a proper Esalen link.

It didn't happen overnight, and am still learning on that level.  One never stops learning.  Have been practicing meditation for many years - a type that recognizes my spiritual energy system - which everyone has, the chakras and energy channels.  When I mention meditation I know that there are loads of them out there and in my experience have avoided anything that tells me what to do (seers, spiritual advisors, etc.) but will work with spiritual healers who assist me in getting in touch with my own answers.  I also avoid gurus (Gandhi was a Hindu and his religion told him to find a guru - but he never found one he was comfortable with - me neither) or other "teachers" who wish to control your life.  Also there is no such thing as an ascended master - in other words, have stuck to a direction that teaches a loving God, or an All That Is and finding my answers within.  This world is God's creation - everyone and everything within it.  Don't forget that you too are God's creation and each one finds their own direction in that regard.

I can't live without spiritual grounding (the connection from your first chakra to the center of the Planet) and focus on it most of the time.  The other essential thing for me is to live in the present moment.  I can't trash myself for the past (though have certainly done that - a lot but found it to be futile) nor create a perfect unattainable world for the future.  Everything happens now.  "Yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery, today is a gift.  That's why they call it the present."  Eleanor Roosevelt.

One of the most amazing persons that I've ever met is Edith Eva Eger.  Took a three day workshop from her at Esalen about twenty years ago.  She didn't even know she was Jewish until they were taking her away to Auschwitz where her mother was thrown into an oven shortly after her arrival.  Could go into many of her experiences that would kill most anyone else, but in the end she forgave the Nazi soldier who broke her back with a rifle but for stealing bread ("...he was supposed to have killed me") and also forgave Hitler for what she experienced as well.

http://nefried.com/speakers/profiles/spkeger.cfm

Don't know where you live or what your interests are but there are many retreats, workshops, and spas around the USA.  You most likely won't fall in love with the first one you visit but all of them are both a spiritual and emotional healing.  I loved Esalen where I spent a couple of weeks.

http://www.esalen.org/

You have to give to your body at times too - or it will rebel emotionally and physically.