Well I wouldn't think a guy like you would. But instead of walking around in the dark look into the UNs mission to control the world through environmental land grabs and their agenda to herd humans like you into urban gulags. It's happening as we speak. I could direct you in the right direction but I have learned unless people do their own leg work in an open minded and honest search for the truth no one can force you to crawl out of your ingrained perspectives.
You have to really want something to appreciate it.