Re: I just don't know what to do or think.

I think that your struggles are easily defined. The first sentence of this letter states it.... "I am at a loss for optimism" I am hoping to convey to you the power of your thoughts, and how what you think has the power to form your life as well as the world you live in. I have been a self taught student of the Law of Attraction for about 7 years now. This is a very powerful realization, and once you understand HOW powerful your thoughts are, you change what you think and say. Thoughts are things.... yes, things. Thoughts just come into your mind, and by listening to or giving attention to them, they gain power to manifest what is contained within the thought. "You" are not your thoughts.... y-o-u have the ability to disregard or accept a thought. Attaching emotion to a thought gives it tremendous power. Your entire letter is a spillage of your emotional negative thoughts.... a-n-d they ARE coming to pass!! Change your thoughts, change your life. I would like to tell you that this is an easy fix, but it takes a while to get honest with ourselves and determine not only how to think new thoughts, but to understand that we sometimes must challenge our core beliefs that hold us in an emotional prison. There is no way for me to explain the complexities of this wonderful knowing. I would invite you to take some time to learn about this for yourself... it is a journey, but one that is facinating and exciting. You can start by finding a site online that offers the video "The Secret" by Rhonda Burne. This is where I started, and since then, I have learned a tremendous amount about myself and how this all works. Please understand that although the contents of The Secret seem to be heavy on materialistic gain, the laws and principles they discuss ARE real. I wish you all the best in getting away from your pessimistic thinking and into the optimistic!!