Yes, you and I are on the same wave length in a lot of ways T. My only goal is to not die from silly things like eating toxic food, vaccines, conventional "healthcare", the lies from MSM, our "government" and so on. In other words, not dying from silly preventable things. Anything more than that is greedy, selfish or unrealistic.
Who knows, my purpose might be to be a warning (canary in the coal mine) for the rest of the country, and wind up alerting people east of here like you to get ready. I'd also be glad to be one of the 50 at the reactors if I thought there was a reasonable chance of success. Which in this case, I don't believe there is.
Anyway it's all good. We don't die, we just change to a higher state of energy and come back here to experience, learn, love and grow. I know I'll be back many more times.