Entering day 6

I feel so imspired by the different posts of late. I am rather confused if this is the correct place for me since there are several threads relating to fasting. Of course, what brought me here was my over eating and weight gain. But, I chose this place to call home because I have fasted before and lost weight and gained every pound back +. My desire now is to move past that zone, into permanent health.

I realize there are many here that have been here a great while. Possibly monitoring and helping those of us, early in our fasts. I can only imagine how boring it must get to hear, "day one" "fasting budding" "Join me on my 30 day fast" and NEVER HEAR FROM THEM AGAIN. I do understand their pain and what does take them away.

I just want to make certain that I am posting in the right spot. I alrady have made some friends and there words and knowing they truly care, carries me into the next day.

I am weak. My muscles tingle in a most uncomfortable (not painful, but not fun) way. I have lied and covered my fast to others since I can't bear to hear the words from people that don't understand. I certainly don't come to this forum as an anorexic or bullimic, only as someone who is healthy, but over weight... but, very addicted to food.

My weight is coming off, which does take persidence over health. For that, I wonder if I am at the right blog spot. I started at over 150 pounds and have already dropped to the early 140's which still makes me shutter.

My clothing feels so much better... and I would think that someone would notice, but, no one does. My head feels better about me, but, my body is really revolting.

I know that is part of detox and part of the reaction that herion addicts would go through when they give up their drug. I am giving up my drug and realize that my body is "jone-sing" ... for what its become addicted to.

I am rambling on, I realize. And who really knows who is still reading this. So, in reality, I think I am blogging just to say that I am here on day 6 and I am so very hopeful it starts to get easier.

I can't imagine feeling this type of weakness, dizziness, some nausea, to go till my end, whatever number that will be... 21 or 30???

I respect the ones here the are so knowledgable about fasting, health, etc. It was recently posted that this place has changed a lot over time. I just want to be certain that I am in the right place and that I am not trespassing, per se, for the more involved. I am but, an amateur only going 21 days in the past.

I so hope the weakness and "cat naps" go away. I would love to sleep the entire night through.

The last thing that I will post is that FASTING IS NOT MADE FOR THE WEAK. I am proud to be one of the few.

Godspeed, to all.

I remain,
Shay