I feel like I am going crazy!

I have been with a man for 17 years (married then divorced) who is charming, beautiful and decietful. He has cheated and had many other Women and other relationships. People love him and wonder what is wrong with me. Women will constantly tell me how wonderful he is and how luck I am! Why don't I feel lucky? I work 3 jobs to support our home. I carry such a heavy weight that I feel my back will break.
When he was working he could not pay the bills, but he could always contribute to his 401K, which he raided for money, when he wished. I just got hit with a tax garnishment to my pay of $541 per check! I filed taxes with him in 2002 and he "forgot" he had taken an early $20,000 withdrawal from his 401k. It was not reported because I did not know. So, I told the IRS and they have agreed to allow me to file an "Innocent spouse form". He did not say he was sorry and treated me like I was just crazy and ridiculous for being furious with him. He said, "I don't know why you are making such a big deal out of this? You found a way to take care of it, didn't you?
He says I am crazy and have an anger problem. He says I cant forgive the past. Do survivors feel extreme anger? -WH Tweet