I do not know how to answer that. I do not know what I want. I need the pain because it is all that I have, yet I do not want it because I know it isn't right.
If anyone were to find out that I was seeing a councellor, all hell would break loose in my world. The odds of someone finding out would be pretty good because my brother is a concellor.
I would rather escape if I could, but I am out of places to run to.