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Hi, I was wondering what could people from aside suggest me how to over come my jealousy. I'm not even sure if it is jealousy or I'm just very insecure about myself.

I just made a big fuzz about my husband making real life friends through games, since he is a gamer and plays a lot.

It's not that I would think he is cheating on me, but I don't understand why does he need to have those friends from games (he has like 3-4)? This last one is a girl and it really hurt me that he has done that, meaning - added her to his skype account. I don't understan why, what is he missing in his life (with me)?

He explained to me that she is just a friend he made and nothing is going on, he told her from the beginning that he is married, but I actually red the conversation, and it felt different. He said p.s. im married, and that he can’t talk on mic because his wife is sleeping.

I must also say that I did check his skype account to see what he is doing. He doesn't hide his passwords from me, on the contrary he trusts me with them, and that makes me feel even worse that I'm acting this low and actually spying on him. I just don't know what to do, because I realize that I’m just making myself looking bad for him and I'm putting myself down.

For the record, we both are in our early twenties, married for more than a year and we have never cheated.
I guess the biggest issue that I have is him having this other life in games that I can’t control and I don’t know what he is doing. I hate that he doesn’t miss me instead and sometime would stay whole night up. I have tried to have active personal life, having friends, going out alone, but he doesn’t seemed to be bothered in a sense that he would miss me and wonder what I’m doing. Instead he is playing and that is driving me nuts.

I would really appreciate any advise or opinion. I’m feeling very desperate and tired of feeling this way.
Thank you!
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