Reading your Post brings it all back to me. I was just about the same as you. Don't worry about removal. It really was a breeze. Both of them removed with no pain. I was scared too, but to my surprise I didn't feel a thing. Don't give up hope. You too will begin to feel better in so many ways, just be patient. Take care of yourself. Look to the future when you will be normal again. Ask your husband to be patient and stay by your side and he will get his old wife back soon. It was amazing to me the transformation that took over after removal. I will have to admit the first two weeks after removal were trying, but made it through. Look up the mirena Crash posts and they may give you some insight as to what others have experienced after removal. It may help. Good luck. Keep your chin up and think positive.