Almost 1 year post update..

So I have had the awful mirena out for almost 10months now. There are days that I feel some what normal but I have yet to completly recover from this terrible thing. Before my pregnancy and mirena I weighed in at 150 which I was ok with. After the birth of my daughter I returned to my pre-pregnancy weight. Gained a few pounds had mirena inserted lost weight and after all this I have gained almost 30 pounds ! I cant drop the weight no matter what I do. I am constantly tired and moody. I feel like a terrible mother to my two beautiful girls. I feel out of sorts not my old self some days I wonder who I am? My doctor had put me on several anti- depressants for my Depression and anxiety but I quit taking them because they didnt seem to help. I want to try to return to myself without drugs. But Im not sure how. My anxiety is not near as bad as it was several months ago. My I have constant repetive thoughts which some days are worse. Alot to do with religion and the after life. And who I am? Never in my life have I ever been like this. I was always a happy content person who had no trouble with my faith. But since mirena I have. My vision troubles have finally straightened out. Body aches gone. headaches gone. still have no sex drive, tired all the time, moody and irratible, foggy thinking remains. all my problems seem to be worse at that time of the month. Just wondering when all the symptoms will go away. when will I be my old self again, and what can I do to help get there faster. Any advice will be helpful. Thanks :) and may God bless