Re: im so scared to be alone

First of all, check out this website:
http://www.codependents.org


Actually, its rather appalling to hear that you maintain a relationship with your father. Do you realize that he could have killed your mother? Do you realize that he could have also killed you? Why do you keep in touch with him?

As for working as an "escort"--- it sounds like you're doing more than just "escorting", it sounds like you're prostituting, am I right? If I'm wrong, please correct me. If you are prostituting under the guise of being an "escort", is that legal in Canada? In the US, if "escorts" engage in prostitution, it is illegal and many are caught in police stings. If what you're doing is illegal, do you realize that you could end up in jail? Is that where you want to be deep down? If not, then it's time to get serious about getting your act together.

It sounds like you don't like living the way you do. That alone should give you an incentive to get some serious help. From what I can see from your post, you don't have any kids. Am I right? If so, I'll breathe a sigh of relief. Please don't become a parent until you get your life straightened out.

You do have resources available when it comes to getting help. You mention calling a hotline. Also, look at the website I mentioned. Grab ahold of the lifelines that are offered to you and make a vow to yourself that you will do the hard work it takes to change your life for the better. In the meantime, dump that loser of a boyfriend and sever contact with your father. Good luck and get going! Tweet