Hi...yes, I know only too well how you feel. I've been waking up alone now for nearly 2.5 years, and I'm now going to allow myself to have a new lover.
Waking up in the middle of the night is an extraordinary experience, isn't it? I ask the angels to surround me and press in upon me to fill the seeming aloneness. I'm told it's all illusion, but the feeling is nevertheless experienced quite deeply.