May I ask why you have a deep desire to share your feelings with this forum? (I'm asking sincerely) Does it give you satisfaction in some way? You seem personally offended about the way this forum is run.
Many of us like this forum and feel very at home here. So it just seems strange to me for someone to come and feel a great urge to share their feelings...like it will change something for the better. We are quite happy and content on how everything is being done. Can the forum improve?...I'm sure it can and I'm sure it will in time....but it will do so as the forum owner deems it necessary to do so.
If you wish to heal, it will take a mental makeover on your part to learn how to view people in a positive way and not think that they are having control over you.
Now if ML came to your forum and tried to police your forum, then control may be an issue.