Re: I need help. Please, help me- Part 2

Well, this is meant to be Part 2. Please excuse me if I am not doing it right.

I forgot to tell you that that soft mass under my left ear went down and was not visible any more. Only that I can feel an small nodo (limphatic) if I palpate that area on my left side neck. But it is not visible or big anymore. I guess my inmune systme was figting the thing or started to fight like that.

As I was telling you, I was forcing the food down, not big quantity, but my system did not want it. Now I can understand my body was trying to tell me it did not want to handle food at all. And that is why i am posting this in the fasting forum to see what they think of this there.

Since I had decided to save on gas I made myself a Walker- I live in a very walkable town. I figured it was going to be good for my health any way. I started to develop some left foot pain. As always, I disregarded, put it aside, until walking became a very painful activity..suddenly. I had to go to a doctor on emergency basis..They diagnosed Plantar Fasciitis (my feet are tiny with very high arches) and was not used to the amount of walking I demanded from them.

To make the story short, I could only walk now by placing all my weight on my right foot.....And something extremely funny (but tragic) happened... I did hurt my right knee by doing so... Since I was already heavy for my knees, it is easy to understand that my right knee could not take the new heavier load...now, this is funny, but very truth...
I am now walking with a cane, very slowly, not to mention that my job search by walking (and by any mean) has been very limited lately.

My poor sweet mother says that I do not have much common sense. I guess she is right. Very sad to admit it to you...find comfort to know you dont know me personally. This is really embarrasing, but this is my present situation.... regarding motility.

Now, I stopped the frivolous eating and started to eat healthier things. I have lost pounds, very slowly, but steady loss.

The problem that is aggravating me like nothing else, I still have to tell you. However, I had to take time to tell you how these symptoms started from the very beginning because I can see they are may be interconnected and there is may be one big reason for all of this, or the combination of many factors. So, I wanted to give you the background.

As or now, I am living on umemployment and with the sweet company and help of my beloved mother. I realized I had to do things more intelligently now,or take care of myself first. It is not clear to me what to do first, or second, or third.

Remember I told you I think I am very toxic. So, I wanted to cleanse myself but I am convinced I have a very clogged or toxic liver. I have read you can not cleanse it when it is so congested.

Now, abouth a month ago, I found myself suddenly covered by hives, hives....my legs, my arms (not my trunk), with these red solid papules of all sizes, ...SO ITCHY! My life is such a misery... I am so thankful mama is around so I can hug her and cry a little out of frustration... (she knows I just need the emotional outlet). There is no end for this itchy thing, I have tried some things, like Bentonite and activated charcoall..they help...in the sense, they have not increased since I started to have those things, like 2 weeks ago....

People tell me I should not bathe much, but soap and water treatment hurt, but after the bath, I feel good, like when you clean a wound..my skin is so sensitive..I have to keep my finger nails short so I dont hurt myself at night...

At first, I went to the doctor, but just to please mama, because I believe they dont know anything about it. They made a lot of questions and prescribed a cream good for nothing (cortisone)... I got Benadryl for myself, so I can get some sleep at night...The Benadryl does not make me sleepy, but gives me the presence of mind I need to cross my arms on front of my body and decide I am not going to use my finger nails again.. in other words, it quiets me, and then, I fall to sleep.

I still believe I am very toxic. But I would not know how to explain how come I believe that..it is kind of a feeling, but I dont know how, or what, or when...how to get started...

I know many things got to be done..and I need it badly. This little fat body of mind is in such a bad shape, and I can't even walk like a normal person...since now I use a cane to walk around the house...Forget about the job search!

Something very peculiar I notice...Every morning, when I wake up, I find myself a few fingers (2 or 3) out of order, or one of my wrists, the right or the left. I mean, swollen, and very painful..I can not use them in the morning..but them, I exercise them and that is gone after 2 or 3 hours... So, I do not know why that is happening to my hands....

Chances I confused you, please, make questions, any questions. And try to help me, please. I need it.

Yours,

Juanita
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