Understanding and supporting you in your personal growth and spiritual quest. However, if this was a relationship you were chasing, I might add that, in my opinion, man is a social creature. We were meant to be coupled. Kind of like how dogs run in a pack. I'm not trying to encourage you into something that you truly do not want or are ready for. However, are you sure that "fear" of committment isn't what is driving your escape from what you pursued for 2 years? Nothing wrong w/ spiritual pursuit but one of the fastest tracks to enlightenment is through the love of oneself and love of another.