insomnia, scoliosis, I'm desperate..

I can't take it. I've gone to many doctors before. Bought 3 mattresses one after the other in less than the time they were supposed to last, because they all suck.

I'm losing it.

I can't find a comfortable position to sleep in like any normal person. Not on my back, not on my side. Nothing. I don't know how it was I was able to fall asleep before.. If I do, it happens by luck. Tossing and turning every night.

I really feel like putting a gun to my head. I'm only 23 years old and it has ruined my life. I put everything on hold because I can't sleep.

It's killing me, I have no life.