Bless your heart chris1, my heart goes out to you. I went through a similar experience years ago, and it is not easy. Coping? You do the best you can, sometimes the sorrow making it unbearable.
Please know that my prayers are with you during this time and that both Tony and I are here for you.
As I have told my children in certain situations as they cried their hearts out while sitting on my lap...... "Life sometimes just stinks."