Re: For Naiad...

Again, Wow! It's so amazing how true everything is.

When you asked me about my relationship with my Mom, it blew me away. Because that is exactly how I feel. I've never really been close with my Mom. I don't talk to her about personal stuff. Never have. She was always there, but to me it just wasn't enough. I wanted/needed more. She provided for me physically, but I don't think she or my dad for that matter, nurtured me. I learned a lot on my own. So you hit that right on the nose!

When Shellycat did my numerology reading it showed that my challenges where 0,6,6,6. What I got from that is my challenges come in the form of a difficult family. I never really though of my family difficult till recently. That's when it really hit that MOST of my problems (challenges) come from my family. At least now I know, and can begin to handle these challenges differently.

It seems I have a lot in store for me this year! A lot of work as well. Its nice to know that I am on the right path. I still have a lot of confusion when it come to work through. I never seem to stay a job very long. Perhaps a year at most! About 5 years ago I got into the nursing field. I'm a CNA. I recently decided that at this time in my life its too stressful for me. It really drains me. And now I know why! Being so sensitive so peoples emotions and feelings, the nursing home environment is just full of sadness and uhhh...Its just not good.

But I still don't know what to do! Its hard for me to work just to work. I have to be happy and enjoy what I'm doing. Why do I have to make it so hard on my self! Sometimes I just wish I wouldn't be so... I cant think of the word. You know what I mean though??

Oh my Tracey! I had to laugh.

"...and what's this sex stuff I see??? ha. Your libido almost seems masculine in a way...hmmmm...Impulsive...."

Isn't it crazy! I don't even know how to explain it. I know I've always had this sexual side. AND I know its always been strong. I find it funny, strange and somewhat awesome.

Its actually part of the reason I broke up with my boyfriend. But there was also a lot of other reasons!

OH Yeah! When I looked up the Mayan astrology stuff and saw the Red Serpent, I just grinned. It fit right in with everything else. At least what I knew at the time.

When I look at everything it almost scares me. Like I feel that I'm supposed to do something of some importance. Does that sound odd? Or am I just in la-la land?

Love,
Ashley

I wonder what all these similarities between me and you mean? ;o)