Re: Each of us will one day find that place of peace

Alan,

Thanks for your insights. I believe I am huge hypocrite myself. I have so many layers of brainwashing left to remove that I might still not have much more to show for my second chance at life. With the last peel of the onion peeled away, what is left of me can only be soul...

I am still most critical of those who share many of the same former brainwashed notions that I once had of the world...that were a complete wash out in heaven. So much of my life was wasted fearing people for their race, religion, sexual orietation, physical appearance and value systems that I was just a tiny little light in heaven... but none the less my light was loved beyond comprehension by the very substance that is love itself...

I did abandon much of my early brainwashing but still find every day, I missed some critical lessons about compassion for the very people who brainwashed me. They too were brainwashed and still, I can not seem to hold my tounge or stop my hands from typing when I begin hearing or reading the words from people who claim to hear and know the spirit of whatever they call "God" that contradict what I know with absolute certainty from meeting "God." Sometimes when they speak, it is like they are barking dogs and I know for certain their words are nothing that the loving being of light I met would have ever uttered... and still most often... I sense the very subtle light in those who are just trying to find their way in this sad and dying world.

Sometimes I am the barking dog and sometimes I am the subtle light. I also get frustrated sometimes when people don't see what is so obvious to me... but then I am certain those I discern as the barking dogs might also see the obvious darkness in me... and it must be so... as I am still here amid... mountains of injustice I see around me... but one day... I witnessed in my NDE a wave of light moving across the whole world...the mountains falling before the joyful spirit of loving kindnes... sweeping through all into and through each spirit and soul....

As for depression, I am not but rather I am like a dog stuck in a car with his beloved master right outside the door. I am happy that I see the light but long to be home in the craddle of that light...

Y-h bless

rudenski